We all deal with it in different ways. Some people I know can cry and cry and cry, and anything that reminds them of the event and they can cry years after.
I’m different, I very rarely show my emotions. When I lose someone I dont cry. I don’t show anything at all. Everything is locked and swallowed deep, it goes so deep even I dont know where to find the emotions for certain events anymore. They will never surface when I dont expect them, I suppose they might as well never have happened. I don’t know if thats a good thing or a bad thing. I has its plus points I guess. For example all my energy goes into making the people around me feel better. When my sister died a few years ago my mum called me ‘Her Rock’ and said she couldnt have gotten through it without me. To be honest I can’t see any bad points to being the way I am. I’m sure there is, but until they come to light, carry on regardless.
‘We are all of us living in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.’
– Oscar Wilde